I am so confused.

I’m so confused,

I want to love you but I can’t.

I want to stay close to you but I can’t.

I want to expect these things but I can’t.

I don’t wanna live,

loving someone who doesn’t love me but I can’t help myself.

I feel so crashed, I don’t know.

Maybe God is giving me a trial that I must finish.

But what should I do? Help me.

I’m so confused.

Don’t love him/her.

Minsan sa buhay ng tao. May dumadating na magpapasaya sayo, magpapangiti at mag aalaga. Pero hindi ibig sabihin noon ay pwede ka mo na siyang mahalin o angkinin dahil baka dumating ang oras na mahal mo parin siya kahit iba na ang inaalagaan niya.

I’m a Liar.

I’m a Liar, that’s true.

I lied just to be with you.

I’m so sorry that I kept this feeling.

‘Cause I Know there’s an ending.

But I’m wrong,

I didn’t believe on your love song.

I just focused on setting you free,

But I never thought what’s your true feeling will be.

Patawad.

Kung kailan handa na akong magtiis kahit ganito tayo,

Ikaw naman ang bumitaw.

Hindi kita masisisi,

Dahil alam ko na ako ang una na nang iwan.

Patawad dahil binitawan kita.

Natakot lang kasi ako,

na mahulog sayo ng tuluyan at

hindi na makabangon pa.

Patawad talaga.

Sana ay may kakayanan akong makabalik sa nakaraan.

pero siguro hindi ko na rin babaguhin yun,

Dahil alam kong dun ka lumigaya,

nung makilala mo siya.

Masaya na rin ako na masaya ka sa iba,

kaysa malungkot na kasama kita.

Thank God.

Thank God for sending you to help me.

to make me feel that I’m important,

to help me realized that falling inlove with someone

is not easy as it seems.

I’m so thankful,

that God sent you

Because of you,

I realized that I don’t need to change myself for others.

They should accept me for who or what I am.

Because of that,

THANK GOD FOR LETTING THESE THINGS HAPPENED.

Jealous

That is the one that I’m feeling right now!

When I once openned my Facebook,

The first post that I noticed is He’s post to the girl that.

I think he likes. I dont know.

I just felt it. It feels like I want to shout at Him,

saying “Dapat ako ang sinasabihan mo nan!”

But I realized,

that I don’t have rights to tell this to Him.

Because He’s not mine and will never be.

I need.

This time, I really need to go and say goodbye!

Eventhough it’s hard, I need.

You know why? I have three answers for you.

First, to stop this useless feeling.

Second, to avoid getting hurt.

And third, to tell you that..

I love you and I want you to be free.

For you, My Love.

Before your heart truly quits,

Just wanna say I will be here.

Just call my name,

I will be there.

And I will never go.

But if you want,

I’ll try to go.

As long as it makes you happy.

It’s okay to me then.

Everything for you.

Just to make you fine,

Just to hear you laughter.

And just to see your big smile.

Even if I’m not, just for you.

I’ll try to forget, try to be happy.

Only for you, My Love.

I Love you .

And I will do everything for you !

I LOVE YOU

During the time that I was sick.

These are things that I was thinking when I was sick.

“Relationship last long not because they are destined to last long,

Relationship last long because two brave people made a right choice.”

“Love waits for one thing, the right momen.”

“Love comforts like sunshine after rain.”

“Before you can truly live, you must first learn to love.”

“It is difficult to grow a Love Flower in friendship, 

But it is more difficult to grow a Friendship Flower in love.” 

July 5, 2010 (Conversation with My Classmate)

During Recess:

Me: Ano ba yan. Hate this feeling, I’m so confused. Yung ineexpect kong care and concern sa kanya, hindi ko maramdaman. Sa iba ko pa naramdaman.

Classmate: Hindi naman kayo, Baby.

Me: HAHA. Oo nga pala. Nag expect na naman ako. *sigh* Adik talaga ako.

Classmate: Ok lang yan. He’s not worth it!

(My tears suddenly fell down)

After Lunch:

Classmate: Break na kami ni ____!

Me: Huh? Why?

Classmate: Ewan ko dun.

Me: Hm.

Classmate: Kay ___ na lang ako.

Me: Ngok, bilis mo naman!

Classmate: HAHA. Joke lang nu. Para makalimutan ko na siya.

Me: Sino ba pipiliin mo, Gusto mo pero you’re not sure if may gusto siya sayo or yung mahal mo at kayo pa pero parang wala lang sa kanya?

Classmate: Ewan ko. Labas na lang tayo, naguguluhan ako sa tanong mo.

Me: Me too.

“FIN”

By My Loving Brother, Polyfer Perez

 I’m not supposed to love you,

I’m not supposed to care,

I’m not supposed to live this life, wishing you were there.

I’m not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do.

I’m so sorry,

I can’t help because I’m soo inlove with you.

Question Mark ?

There are so many questions that I want to ask myself. Why did I still loved you eventhough you’ll never love me back? Or Who Will I choose? HAHA. In that question, My answer is obviously JESUS CHRIST. HAHA. So tired of thinking about this question everytime. Help me! So Confuse. Heartpain and Headache. Wish that He’ll realize someday, that Paula loved him and He just ignored it.

Hiding :|

HAHA. Love this Tagged Photo (Facebook). You’re hiding your feelings with a fake smile and laughter. Just to let Him know that you don’t care. Siya naman, hindi niya parin maramdaman! Or He is just ignoring it? I so loathe him. But I need to express all my happiness just to make him happy when he’s with me.

June 30 2010 | My thought

Masakit mag mahal ng taong hindi ka naman mahal, pero mas masakit mag mahal ng taong. Pagkatapos mong matutunan mahalin, iba rin pala ang pipiliin.

Love or care?

When I’m with you, I feel so free and happy. When I’m not with you, I wish I can go back in the times that we are happy. When we misunderstood each other, one of us will make the first move for us to be fine. When I’m sad or lonely, you’ll do everything just to see that I’m smiling. When there’s a guy that is courting me, you are so mad (like a father) that you want me to say the word “busted” to that guy. Is that a sign of a true love or just making someone happy because you care.

Speak out your mind.

I always ask myself, Why do you love him eventhough you know that he will never love you? Same question everytime, everyday. Why? You’ll just hurt yourself. You’ll just suffer all the pain inside. Spit it out, no! Just let it past. Is it right to say it?

Does he know that you are acting like that when he’s arround? No. Does He even care about your true feelings? No, no and no! So stop thinking that one day, He will realize that he loves you because that is so impossible.